Tuesday, April 15, 2014

God, I have a question.

I've been having an ongoing conversation with God.  Telling Him all of the details of my life...even though I know He already sees it all. I kinda get the feeling He longs for the sound  of my voice.

Today, a song, by one of my favorite groups (All Sons and Daughters)  keeps finding its way into my mind and on my lips.  
 The song is called "Beautiful".  And every word, I have been speaking to God a thousand times.  Funny thing...He doesn't  seem to mind.


Will your grace run out if I let you down?

Cuz all I know is how to run.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing it's another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you take brokenness aside and make it beautiful... beautiful.

Will you call me child, when I tell you lies? Cuz all I know is how to cry.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing its another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you  take brokenness aside, and make it beautiful...


Saturday, February 22, 2014

Dearest Dolly,

How could 7 years pass by soo quickly?  It seems like only  yesterday that I was staring at you asleep in your crib.  Now sometimes I have to beg you to go to bed.  No matter how big you get you will always be my little Dolly and I will always love you.



Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Thank you

Lately,  I have had to turn down my own awesomeness so that I could hear God better. In the middle of my winter, all I can say  to Him is, "Thank you!"

Thank you Lord that you know all of me.  That your hand is upon me.  Thank you that whether I hear you or not,  see you or not, I can rest in the knowledge that you are here.  Thank you that you are my provider, thank you that you read my mind, you know my biggest dreams and my deepest thoughts.  Thank you that you are my peace.  Thank you that you calm my fears.  Thank you that you are with my in all my failures and all my successes.  Lord, in all of my struggles, and triumphs, thank you Lord that you meet me right where I am.

I came across this video of Lisa Page Brooks singing, "I want to say Thank You".  Wanted to share it with you.

Monday, December 23, 2013


I love living in a beach town... even though its incredibly huge with about 13 zip codes...go figure.  I won't get into a rant about city planning.. I'll just shake my head and pretend it doesn't take me 20 minutes without traffic to drive to the beach.   I'm in a beach kind of mood but, my to do list is a little too long to disappear in the sand. Besides, its raining.

Hard to believe that Christmas is 2 days away. We have been having incredible spring like weather and I've been loving it.

My room has become a no access zone in fear that several little detectives disguised as my kids will go investigating and stumble upon some wrapped boxes with their names on them.  I have to pick up a couple more goodies for Cookie and then I'm done, with shopping that is.

Besides finishing organizing cleaning the house for Christmas,   my project for today is to figure out where the  cookie cutters are hiding. They are pretty special. I've been using them since I was about 3 and they are all metal. There's only but a few places where they could be.  Let's hope I find them before Christmas Eve.

 I'm super excited about baking several dozen in our new place. 

I hope 5 or 6 dozen will be enough.

Saturday, December 21, 2013

The update

Its hard to believe the last time I blogged here was 6 months ago.  Trust me when I say I have had plenty of material to write about but, life would not allow me to blog about every detail of the last several months.

As I looked at a few previous posts, its no secret that I am not the same person anymore. (Nor should I be).

Since my last post, me and the little people moved to a place of our own, I survived working summer school, I accepted my new assignment in a different classroom this school year under an amazing teacher, I've remained a pescatarian, and have continued on my journey of health and healing.

I  took the VCLA and got a 522, took the Praxis2 and missed by 7 points. Which is pretty good given that Ive been out of school for nearly 18 years.  I'm still processing through that.

I became a gladiator (huge scandal fan)/Kerri Washington fan but, I don't know if I'll "turn up" next season.

I'm now an instagramer so that I can keep an eye on Cookie, I tweeted recently for the first time in a long time, and of course I have a few boards on Pinterest (a wonderful waste of time).

I have fallen in love with Plato's Closet but, refuse to buy anymore clothes or shoes since I am juicing and salading ( I know salading is not a word).

 The Christmas tree is decorated in rainbow colored lights for the first time in 16 years. I'm still getting used to it.  I usually have white lights.

I broke down and got a beta fish. He's red.  His name is Oliver. (Named after Olivia Pope of course).

Despite the struggle and the hustle, I have found a strength in me that I had no idea existed so I guess that makes me Superwoman.

I have been amazed time after time how God has shown up and has provided and filled my needs.  I have been amazed how God has been incredibly patient with me as I run, walk, stumble, fall, sprint, and crawl.

Lastly, I've gain a deeper appreciation for farmers.  They grow my green source of food.