Tuesday, April 15, 2014

God, I have a question.

I've been having an ongoing conversation with God.  Telling Him all of the details of my life...even though I know He already sees it all. I kinda get the feeling He longs for the sound  of my voice.

Today, a song, by one of my favorite groups (All Sons and Daughters)  keeps finding its way into my mind and on my lips.  
 The song is called "Beautiful".  And every word, I have been speaking to God a thousand times.  Funny thing...He doesn't  seem to mind.


Will your grace run out if I let you down?

Cuz all I know is how to run.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing it's another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you take brokenness aside and make it beautiful... beautiful.

Will you call me child, when I tell you lies? Cuz all I know is how to cry.

Cuz I am a sinner if it's not one thing its another, caught up in words, tangled in lies.

But you are a Savior, and you  take brokenness aside, and make it beautiful...


Saturday, February 22, 2014

Dearest Dolly,

How could 7 years pass by soo quickly?  It seems like only  yesterday that I was staring at you asleep in your crib.  Now sometimes I have to beg you to go to bed.  No matter how big you get you will always be my little Dolly and I will always love you.



Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Thank you

Lately,  I have had to turn down my own awesomeness so that I could hear God better. In the middle of my winter, all I can say  to Him is, "Thank you!"

Thank you Lord that you know all of me.  That your hand is upon me.  Thank you that whether I hear you or not,  see you or not, I can rest in the knowledge that you are here.  Thank you that you are my provider, thank you that you read my mind, you know my biggest dreams and my deepest thoughts.  Thank you that you are my peace.  Thank you that you calm my fears.  Thank you that you are with my in all my failures and all my successes.  Lord, in all of my struggles, and triumphs, thank you Lord that you meet me right where I am.

I came across this video of Lisa Page Brooks singing, "I want to say Thank You".  Wanted to share it with you.

Friday, January 3, 2014

There must be more

It's 3 days into the New Year.

I can't say that I have a New Year's resolution  because I don't.  I can't say that I have made a bucket list because I haven't.

The only question in my mind is where do we go from here? Given all the life that we have already lived, how do we make the most impact  before we leave this earth? 

Which gives rise to more questions. How do I navigate through this part of the journey when the territory is unfamiliar, the directions are difficult to interpret and there are pieces missing  that were once in place? 

What do you do when all that is familiar becomes mundane and leaves  the residue of disappointment at the end of the day?  And at the same time  drops bewilderment into your soul which causes you to ask whether or not if this is all there is to life.  And as much as you try to fight it day after day... its still there; that haunting voice in the back of your mind that you hear when your driving alone or when your in the middle of your day to day tasks that says, "There must be more". 

With anger, disgust, disappointment, and hunger you often respond, "God is this it?, Is this all there is?  Is there more to this life?"

My prayer and hope for  2014 is that God reveals himself in a way that you can understand.  And that he pulls  back the layers that will allow healing to unfold.  I pray that the broken links would be connected, the  missing pieces would be layed bare,  the building blocks that don't fit,  would be reassembled, the blueprint be made clear,  the passion return,  and the "more" that my soul and your soul  longs to experience would give birth to a new reality filled with vision.

I'm pretty certain there must be more.

Monday, December 23, 2013


I love living in a beach town... even though its incredibly huge with about 13 zip codes...go figure.  I won't get into a rant about city planning.. I'll just shake my head and pretend it doesn't take me 20 minutes without traffic to drive to the beach.   I'm in a beach kind of mood but, my to do list is a little too long to disappear in the sand. Besides, its raining.

Hard to believe that Christmas is 2 days away. We have been having incredible spring like weather and I've been loving it.

My room has become a no access zone in fear that several little detectives disguised as my kids will go investigating and stumble upon some wrapped boxes with their names on them.  I have to pick up a couple more goodies for Cookie and then I'm done, with shopping that is.

Besides finishing organizing cleaning the house for Christmas,   my project for today is to figure out where the  cookie cutters are hiding. They are pretty special. I've been using them since I was about 3 and they are all metal. There's only but a few places where they could be.  Let's hope I find them before Christmas Eve.

 I'm super excited about baking several dozen in our new place. 

I hope 5 or 6 dozen will be enough.