Forgiveness is a long journey. God has been dealing with my heart about unforgiveness. You would be surprised (or maybe not) how many in the body of Christ who harbor unforgiveness in their hearts. Quite often, the offenses have been forgotten about but, yet we are reaping the fruits of these seeds sown. Out of desperation I cried out to God for Answers and the keys to unlock heart issues in my life. I got so tired of seeing or hearing advertisements for the secrets to spiritual success and spiritual not to mention financial prosperity. So many "resources" came with a price tag. "God your Word is Free! I don't want to have to pay to hear what you have to tell me in your Word!". So I climbed on to the Spiritual Operating Table so that I God may do Open heart surgery. And since then, He has been revealing to me the concept of mercy over judgement and to even cry out for mercy for those that have offended me. I have asked him to specifically call to my remembrance instances where I have judged/cursed others because they injured me by some offense. Hebrews 12:15 "See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many". Could that verse really be talking to Christians? Could it be we have hidden unforgiveness against those that have impacted our lives so greatly like teachers, doctors, former employers, family, friends, spiritual leaders, roommates, police officers, strangers. What patterns are we repeating because we have judged someone and have not forgiven them? God has showed me faces and places of unforgiveness even against those that didn't quite mean what they said. How many times have we put up walls and defenses because we misunderstood someones actions? Was Jesus serious when he said that we must forgive 70 X's 7 ? When the Lord's pray says "Forgive us our debts, as we also forgiven our debtors" could that really mean: "Lord with the same measure of mercy I have given, give me that same measure"? "In the same way I have forgiven, forgive me"? Would I really be able to walk in the fullness of God's love if I don't truly forgive my brothers and sisters in Christ? How can I go around touching lives from a heart that is clogged.
The good news is is that God is slow to anger and full of mercy and he is not mad at us but, mad about us. We don't have to strive, we don't have to follow rules and regulations to get God's approval. We just need to give our hearts to Him. Including those places that have been closed off and sealed with a sign that reads "DO NOT ENTER".
"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit in me".Psalm 51:10
Thank you Lord for your mercy.