Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I know, my ways are not your ways.
This month will mark my fourth month at my job. Yesterday was by far my hardest day. For over 3 1/2 hours straight, I assisted with restraining and redirecting one of our students. Bare in mind that my work day is 4 1/2 hours.
My arms were incredible sore leaving work and today my pects and shoulders are even more sore. It was physically gruelling and emotionally draining. I came home very tired. I definitely earned my pay plus some. Truthfully my thought process was more like, "Lord I deserve this job with benefits, I want more than what I'm getting and I come to work each day to learn this job and to serve the staff & this unique population of students and this day made me feel so wiped out, What the heck?"
I couldn't believe how things went. It was unbelievable. I ended the day with more questions for God. More prayers for my future and a 10 minute trip to the dollar store that ended up being an hour or so longer than expected because half the time I was listening to the radio and thinking over my life and the events of the day.
When I walked into work this morning, I was in the building for no more than 10 seconds and a coworker of mine said, "Yesterday evening the Lord gave me Jeremiah 29:11 for you, I was going to text it to you but, I didn't...Read it". I was so surprised! I told her I really needed to hear that. I thanked her and she told me to have a blessed day and we parted ways.
She had no idea of what I went through yesterday, nor the things I was processing yesterday evening. But God knew. And just to prove that He was thinking of me, He gave me this powerful verse to start off my work day with, and then assigned me to another classroom for the day.
I have to admit, I don't always get why things happen the way they do, or why I go through certain "tests". I don't always get why things don't happen the way that I have them play out in my mind. As things change and shift in my life, I do get that there is a bigger plan at work behind the scenes. Even if I can't see what that plan is.
Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Verse 12 & 13 say, "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart".