Last night in the middle of a storm, Cookie walked Noahkeem into my room and said, "Mom, Noahkeem wants to stay with you". I pulled back the sheets and let him climb into the bed. As his sweaty little head lay on my pillow, I could feel that his heart was pounding....he was scared. We were in the middle of a storm.
The thunder continued to crash loudly and the lightening flashes filled my room with day light- a few seconds at a time. I reasurred Noahkeem, that I was there and that he was alright.
Not too soon after, Rocco called out for his sister and I went to see what the matter was. I went over to his bed and layed down and he said, "Hi mom, what does the storm look like?" I got up and pulled back his curtain a little, showing him how light the sky was and how the rain was pouring down.
It amazes me how children feel safe when they know that you-the adult- are there. I couldn't help but think about the storm(s) in my life and how I felt when I finally believed that God would and was able to take care of me, and how scared I felt when I wasn't so sure. God's heart is to always be with me and to reassure me that I am safe. His heart is for me to believe that He is who He says He is- no matter what the storm looks like.
Event though I told Noahkeem that I was there, and that he was alright, even though I rubbed his back when I felt him jump at the explosive sounds of thunder, it did not stop the storm. Trusting and believing that I would take care of him made him feel safe and the storm less scary.
As I write this I am reminded of a part of Matthew 23:37, "... how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing." It makes me think that perhaps God just waits for us to take Him up on His offer for protection and safety but because we like to handle things ourselves or because we feel that he isn't interested in certain parts of our lives, he can't do the things that he wants to do for us like give us peace or a feeling a safety when everything seems tumultuous.
As I look out the window, the sun is shining today. Yet, it's clear that a storm blew through last night. Noahkeem isn't scared right now. And God is still here.